That same feeling comes back again,
when blinded by dark and unknown turns,
I still tremble forward, feel the way,
and call your name but none returns.
That i am stranded again, all alone,
not knowing if i proceed or recede
and unexpectedly finding blind curves,
I try, in vain, to rise against defeat.
It's all changed, the feeling more deep.
Cuz now i feel more alone than before.
The short span of time i had support.
You were there with me, but not anymore.
You pulled me through the darkest of days.
You bore, relentlessly, my anger, my pain.
You stood by me in all i ever did.
And guided me on the right, again & again.
Provided me a strong pillar of support.
To whom i could look up for strength, anytime.
And still i didnt stop to think even once,
why i blamed you for everything, everytime.
I know it's my fault, i pushed you away.
I blamed you for times you couldnt be there.
I know deep down you're worth even more
but your absence is a thing i still cant bear.
I know im being punished for pushing you.
Maybe that's why you're suddenly this far away,
and i cant hope to reach you by any means.
Living without even your voice everyday.
Regret is now inadequate, remorse lesser still,
I know I cant hope to pull through anymore.
Im sinking into it more as time progresses,
cant pull to safety any stronger than before.
But for what its worth, i hope you will forgive,
cuz i inch forward to the edge gradually
and try as i may to pull towards safety
I need you to pull me up, eventually.
I have been selfish, unreasonable, nuisance, lately.
I can only hope for any reprieve after this.
But i still need you despite all that has happened.
My grasp on sanity, it's a chance i cant miss.
- tq
when blinded by dark and unknown turns,
I still tremble forward, feel the way,
and call your name but none returns.
That i am stranded again, all alone,
not knowing if i proceed or recede
and unexpectedly finding blind curves,
I try, in vain, to rise against defeat.
It's all changed, the feeling more deep.
Cuz now i feel more alone than before.
The short span of time i had support.
You were there with me, but not anymore.
You pulled me through the darkest of days.
You bore, relentlessly, my anger, my pain.
You stood by me in all i ever did.
And guided me on the right, again & again.
Provided me a strong pillar of support.
To whom i could look up for strength, anytime.
And still i didnt stop to think even once,
why i blamed you for everything, everytime.
I know it's my fault, i pushed you away.
I blamed you for times you couldnt be there.
I know deep down you're worth even more
but your absence is a thing i still cant bear.
I know im being punished for pushing you.
Maybe that's why you're suddenly this far away,
and i cant hope to reach you by any means.
Living without even your voice everyday.
Regret is now inadequate, remorse lesser still,
I know I cant hope to pull through anymore.
Im sinking into it more as time progresses,
cant pull to safety any stronger than before.
But for what its worth, i hope you will forgive,
cuz i inch forward to the edge gradually
and try as i may to pull towards safety
I need you to pull me up, eventually.
I have been selfish, unreasonable, nuisance, lately.
I can only hope for any reprieve after this.
But i still need you despite all that has happened.
My grasp on sanity, it's a chance i cant miss.
- tq
