the night is still dark
the rain hasn't stopped lashing.
my coat is drenched and heavy
and my eyes washed with the downpour.
the world has been locked away somewhere
the lights have all blinded me.
promises have ceased to exist
and the past has eventually caught up.
but why do you sound perplexed?
why the sudden anxiety?
didnt u think i would survive?
or do you lose faith in yourself?
you were always self-absorbed
in your own deceitful world.
it was only a matter of time that u noticed
noticed me standing alone.
and offered to stand by for a while.
it was a while for you.
and a lifetime of memories for me.
a moment of company for you
but a lifelong misery for me.
though i have been through the likes of it before
dont bother about how i will fare
go back to your subservient world
leave me with my own axe to grind.
i cant decide whether i must be happy
happy that you gave me such joy
or cry that its all over.
that it could end so soon?
now i may stand lone in the rain
while you're safe and sheltered
and far away to bother any more.
far away to turn your back to me.
i can survive in this thunderstorm
the way i have all these years
i dont need your concerns to guide me.
i dont need for you to save me.
i am but a mortal.
in my hands are not punishments
but i am not saint enough
to even provide forgiveness.
but know this the way you have harmed
my conscience and my soul
so will revenge be rained on you
the way these drops lash on me
so will you pay for throwing me away
you will amend by the count of tears that fall off me.
-tq