Four seasons in a day
coffee and sugar just for once
the sunset is behind me
alone and contemplating
is life fair after all?
Learning to be a cheater for once
life teaches new things
let's take it down with a pinch of salt
not realizing at least for once
that someone hurt
happiness and sorrow
like spring and rain
feeling guilt and hatred
so strongly winter
heated arguments
summer
but I need sometime
by myself
so used to being alone
I prefer myself to any
i'm entitled to mistakes
mortal feelings
I dont sign a saint's form
I realise I loved you
it's just suddenly over
I made promises
I know I shouldn't have
blank dark looks
I dont want to speak
wishing you could understand
what I have to say
given loneliness company for so long
it calls me back
I wish you would back out
least of the damage I cud do
I've loved myself so much
that I cant get used to anyone
anyone loving me
so I have to leave you
at least until I make up my mind
get my straight life
nothing's wrong

it wont last forever

we can only try.

- tq