wasted on you

thousands of sunshines drowned in that flood, many smiles washed away in the rain, sometimes i think i was to blame for all this mess. Or it just takes more than me to understand. All the love i felt, wasted on you. so much so that now i'm tired of giving it all. or that i have already given all that i could
the love feels dry now.
all the joy i felt was conjured up, imaginary and fake.